Welll if annoyace is indeed the topic of the hour, why not be fair in listing faults of on both sides. It takes two people minus good comunication skills to make something an annoyance:"You were just like me, then someone dissapointed you...."
I suppose it is wrong to sit here and assume you are the only one who is guilty of a certain behavoir, yet, At the moment you are my greatest annoyance, let us begin shall we?
There you sit and proclaim you expect nothing and give nothing unless rightfully deserved.There is a word for someone who is like you, a martyr....
I had hoped that when i met you, that there was something different about you. We had alot in common and I got very used to talking to u day in and day out anout whatever crossed our minds, which i suppose is my mistake, having 20/20 hindsight, I know now i should not have taken that time for granted.
What i am trying to say is that I really had valued the friiendship that was forming, I only wish it could have stayed that way, but things change as they always do, and as you very well know I hate change.
Or at least i had thought they had changed. What I had come to realize is that you were who you always are and will continue to be and there's nothing different there. I see now in the ways you still treat others that they saw what I saw at first, a great person who was just looking for a little companionship in this fucked up lttle society, someone who has alot of things to ofer to the world.. You're someone who seems to genuinely care about others and what's going on with them, you are the kind of person who says you have been hurt when in reality, you have done the hurting, when in reality you will continue doing that which causes others some form of pain (whether it be great or small), while coninuing to tell others that you hate to see any one person upset and strive to prevent that.
The thing is now at least i know it was nothing personal. Already I have watched you do the same thing to another person, and another, and have heard many more stories.
But having heard these things means nothing at all, for had it been a personal thing i would have assumed that the fault lay somehwere with me...
...knowing that this is a re-occuring theme with you, just makes annoys me further because I know there is no way to stop it...
However I feel more pity for you than for anyone of your friends, because I have to wonder what made you this way. I have to wonder whether you do it consciously or if you cannot help it. I wonder if you wish it could be stopped but have neither the ability, nor the courage to face up to and stop it.
It is you in the end who is the most hurt from your actions, it is you who is stuck in a contunuous neverending circle of this bullshit that will come back to bite u in the ass, and maybe you see it, maybe you don't, my only hope is that someday, something will change for the better and you will find yourself looking at the world in a different way....
Just remember, that what you do to another living being is carried on long after you have stop hurting them, for in that person you have sown the seeds of your deeds and there is now little hope for erradicating them....
Good luck because you need it